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Give My Heart

The prescription for every lifestyle is always to go beyond oneself. The Beatles say to find someone to love. For a parent the gift is giving to the child. For the entrepreneur the gift is creating something useful and desirable. For the financial life, gathering assets is to benefit a family or to participate in a group. For the universal mind, the gift is gratitude to a creator or awe in the face of the vastness of the universe.

For the performer, the gift is sharing a vision with one person in an audience or with a complete spectrum of groups. In the study of dance and music, building energy fields is a matter of changing focus and imagery to include a fellow dancer or musician and to invite a wider group to experience unique combinations of movement, emotion, and intention.

Each artist devises their own configurations that reveal surprises and more demands to give of themselves beyond their wildest imagination.
Tim Hurst 12/22/17

In a search to lower my stress and get my blood pressure under control, I have begun giving my heart to a source outside myself. From my perspective of shifting focus from a broad view to a narrow one, my broadest view is a creator of the universe. This is a poem I wrote exploring this experience:

Giving my heart to my creator releases my desire for proof that I am the author of my energy.

If my energy is beyond my desire to torque and to force, what freedom I have to allow rejuvenation to live within me.

All is beyond my imagination anyway. Why must I struggle so for an opinionated desire?

Where does the dance, the music come from then? What need to ask if my creator is the author of my energy?

How much more unique my energy must be than I can imagine?

Yes it is true I must now ask and continue to ask to give my heart to my creator?

How can I possibly ask for that?
Tim Hurst 12/21/17

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Dancing the Upside

My play today is with the upside. My teacher, Deborah Hay gave direction for the plié, ” The down is the up. And the up is the down.”

This is a definition of the sine wave. The upward motion contains the momentum and the energy of the downward. The downward motion contains the momentum and energy of the upward.

My emotion and sensation is anticipation and curiosity both approaching the top and the bottom of the curve. Within me is both the delight of life and a kind of responsibility to embrace each wave with willingness.

Here is the place of my dance today. My study is to rise with the breath instantly filling every vessel, every organ, every cell. Toe to head and every millimeter between becomes a sack that fills with oxygen. The whole of me is also in an easy gentle rotation imaging multiple winding helix simultaneously spiraling upwards and downwards.

My body rises with the oxygen filling me. My pelvic diaphragm lifts, my Lung Diaphragm spreads, my Dancer’s Diaphragm behind my solar plexis rotates open, the oxygen opens my cranial base and frees my top vertebra to balance my bobbing head, my Singer’s Diaphragm opens my soft palate reminding me of the slow and gentle third eye and the meditator’s fourth ventricle at the back of my head.

My entire body is filling and with ease extending in all directions beyond my own boundaries. My internal image of a winding helix is participating in the extension not only upwards and outwards but also downwards.

The energy of the spiraling helix is simply upwards and downwards at the same time.

This is not an abstract motion. This is the motion of anticipating something I love, an embrace, holding a child, riding a bicycle. This is the lifting beyond my self and at the same time connecting down within myself. This is the balance of exuberance and personal joy. This is the meeting of people, animal, and plants. This is my reaching to receive the gifts of my creator, Life.

Returning to my practice and experiment of rising with and through my breath, I come face to face with my willingness. The renewed life from the oxygen is both delightful and overwhelming. I have a choice, to force the breath through willful direction or to embrace each breath as a new creation.

The process of life is vast. The repetitive simple inhale and exhale opens and connects every part of myself. With each repetition, my cells die and are replaced with fresh new cells. The circumstance has changed.

My choice is to embrace the extension as both upwards and downwards or to attempt to force myself into one direction. If I choose to only extend outwards then I limit myself to brittleness. If I choose to instead fall into the downward nature of the curve, I will also limit myself and clasp my fists around anything to stabilize my fall.
My willingness is literally embracing the life that is filling me. If I do this slowly in the preparation for my dance, I have access to trillions of minute variations and qualities of moving and being. Any circumstance will be a place to extend beyond and within myself at the same time.
Tim Hurst 09/22/17

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Healing My Trauma

My experiment today is to explore an area in my cranium that began healing in a CranioSacral Therapy with Maria Scotchell yesterday. I reexperienced an injury at birth when the physician used forceps to reposition me in the womb.

The two areas that I sense now are under my right ear and at the top left quadrant of my head. I began moving by bobbing the base of my skull around the top Atlas vertebra of my spine. My movement felt restricted. For whatever reason, I felt myself in open space.

Placing my hands gently on these two areas, I moved my head side to side. And then I entered a familiar experience when I allow my movement to follow any path it seems to follow. These pathways are usually what I know as the smallest curves becoming circles and spirals and loops. The movement is continuous and gently shifting toward every direction, rising and falling into any position or orientation.

These areas of experience are ones I have avoided or limited my awareness. To go into this memory obviously has created resistance in me because I now feel a reluctance to continue.

However, the free flow of curving motion is bringing me to an awareness of this entire complex experience and allowing me to release it. This may be a process I will repeat over time or maybe I will allow myself to decriminalize the sensations and memories involved.

The word decriminalize just came out of me. I may have been avoiding the experience by directing blame on myself. This reminds me of the experience of football players with head injuries who direct violence on themselves and others. What a process we assign ourselves!

Yet here it is. a movement that allowed me to accept and go past the experience. It is here that I ask if this free flow of motion in every direction and dimension is basic process of life. Am I replicating the movement within every cell?

Of course life is beyond the smallness of my system. After all it is my brain body coalition that says, “Stop. Do not go further.” Within the tussle of myself is the desire to both withhold from life and completely burn myself up with life’s energy.

I lay down for a nap in this, my early morning play. The sensation of falling through space brought out more questions. Unspeakable images of malleable shifts went beyond my simple concept of pathways and lines and circles. Continual responsiveness. Beyond yearning and resisting. Beyond my thought of a moving body. Beyond floating and malleability.

Within the experience is a knowing of personal response and receptivity. My inability to conceive this vastness and the complete interconnection of everything translates into an experience of personal care and a regeneration of life.
Tim Hurst 09/02/17

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Max Loughan on God and Energy

Must see 13 year old Max Loughan, scientist and entrepreneur on Facebook who wants to make the world a better place. He means it.

To Max Loughan

I loved your interview with the scientist who wanted to identify with you and could not grasp the largeness of your conception of Life.

My wish for you is to keep exploring deeper into the essence of life and the ways we can treasure life. Teach our children to love life more and more. Do not stop with what we think we know and most of all do not follow the shallow thinking that the experiences of the people of religion and the arts have no value. They are the supreme searchers. They are the explorers of the different realities and the infinite realms of vibrations and energy that you hope to understand.

Mathematics and reality are partners. Life is the essence of creation. The energy that makes up Life is based on Love that is infinite beauty as seen in the fractal. There are two books that make the distinction between Life as the essence and Love as the transformer of man when man can not transform himself or his world beyond what he knows.

One is Glenda Green, Love Without End. The other is Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist. You will have already approached all the questions they raise. However, there is the question of a creative force beyond our knowing that no person comprehends. One reason we do not comprehend is that Love is an infinite care and nurture of life that we humans have the capability of thwarting and reversing for our own ends.

I am curious if you have an equation for this, our ability for self deception and our commitment to an illusion that we make things better by our thought even though our world keeps showing us how we miscalculate the delicate balance of our ecosystems and even our own bodies.

My search is for the wisdom within the movement of Life and how we can communicate with that wisdom and live within it. My feeble efforts are at https://movineasy.com/blog.

Thank you Max Loughan. Your courage is looking and speaking clearly.
Wishing you the best with your search and your innovations.
Tim Hurst 081917