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What’s Fatigue to a Dancer?

Today fatigue overcame me and I felt my body falling apart. I began to pull every image inside myself to ask if any of them could call me back to a semblance of malleability.

The first image I rely on is the double helix from bottom of spine through top of my head. Two opposite spirals are intertwined strands fashioned on DNA strands. These are image structures that rotate slowly through the entire length of the strands.

The double helix nourishes my awareness with motion and attention to all the moving systems in my cells. The rotation generates a level of energy that I can ask my body to receive as I release tension and resistance that reduces my malleability. My fear seems to grab on to the tension in hopes that some manner of control can stop a closing off of my ability to continue a nourishment process.

Time moves slowly and it seems forever before I sense of relief. I vary the shape of the double helix from one set of stands that is narrow enough to surround my spine to a broad set that travels the edges of my body. I image two sets of double helix along side my spine, crossing to enter my neck and exiting the front and back Fontanelles at the top of my head.

I image a horizontal double helix at the pelvic floor activating the lower vertebra and match the spiral movements at my cranial base activating the top vertebra. Then I follow these spirals with my eye movements.

The variations keep my attention moving and my awareness sharp for any differences in the movement of energy.

I go back to the full body double helix, this time from the arches of my feet up,through my legs, crossing through my hips, passing the the spine just above my pelvic bone, and passing up through my head. The slow rotation of the double helix is comforting and allows me time to ask and receive nourishing energy.

Once my energy begins to return I have to welcome it and feed excessive flow back into the double helix. Otherwise my mind and nerves activate in an overload mode. The slow steady double helix gives me the image to manage the change. Plus I have the presence of mind to ask for all my systems to receive these changes and to work together for the nourishment I need to come back from overwhelming fatigue.
Tim Hurst. 11/09/17

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Must Rest Dance

Today I am exhausted and inspired beyond my ability to absorb it all. Yesterday saw Alexa’s choreography featuring Lynette Garcia at Ballet Austin. Then saw a rehearsal of Sharon’s choreography, Las Cuatros Estaciones: The Story of Human Trees. Incredibly moved. Inspired by the personal commitment of each dancer to become more of themselves.

Canceled all meetings and plans for today. Exhausted to the bone. Read Harry Potter number six until had to sleep. Slept. Woke. Hydrate. Nutrition support and juice.

Back to rest. No supplement was going to work. No reading. So I prayed and saw my life, each phase as a connector between people, ideas, inspiration. I have followed what I have been given.

Entered our living room space for dancing, singing, praying. One move and I knew, only dancing will do. And singing. Took out a reserve pair of ballet shoes. They fit me so well. They become a part of me.

Yesterday’s performances carried me. The dancer’s lifted turns sent delight through me. Realized I would not go to that level in Ballet because my belief was so strong that to learn I must direct everything.

Taking a sense of Alexandra foot work, Eurythmy agile collar bone, Floor-Barre roll from a turned out hip joint. There I was rising into a turn with the delight I wait for. A small beginning. A slight sense of the technique yet a huge experience of inspiration.

My cranium calls for hydration. My body no longer fatigued, released somehow. Now I can rest in dance or in the day’s sunshine or in a book (not Moby Dick today). Rest I can.
Tim Hurst 03/24/17