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This I Live

I live only because of the opportunity to move in two directions at once.

I do this with a trajectory of curving that does not collide but rather rises and suspends and subsides.

I do this with a willingness to meet all intersections with delight in every crossing and every parallel movement as the actions of following and leading emerge.

I live within the dialogue of my trajectories and and my intersections. This dialogue becomes my experience that I embrace for better and for worse.

The pathways and the meetings require more courage and more insight than I have at any one moment. I have to rely on an inquisitive delight that is a gift and a part of me that knows how to grow.

The courage I ask for is to trust this gift inside me that relates me to all other life. When I accept the courage and the gift then I join with other life to grow. When I refuse this courage which is my default choice I shrivel and turn away from growth and away from life.

The dialogue between trajectory of curving and intersections of movement reveals more about myself that I can conceive.

I am trapped in my isolated experience that refuses to move between the two arenas.
Real and unreal
Self and other selves
Love and hate
Clarity and confusion
Decisive and distracted
True and false

Micro and macro
Skills and personality
Physical and spiritual
Mechanical and melodic
Forced and natural
Bold and subtle

Directed and surrendered
Dominant and sujagated
Deceiver and Deceived
Seeker and sought
Controlled and uncontrolled
Conscious and unconscious
Health and Disease
Strong and Weak
Agile and stiff
Hurt and healed
Taumatized and peaceful
Delight and despair

My only truth is that I am built to move between the two directions. Each has its own pathway and each has its own intersections.

To the degree that i take delight in navigating with a curved trajectory and a willingness to engage all myself within the intersections offered to me, my experience becomes my own as a part of a greater whole. I accept the gift that means growth and that guides me through all circumstances.
Tim Hurst 07/23/18